Red River,don't expect much! But atleast I got started!
Well, where do I start? Its been long – very long that I wrote. I left the shores of the Promised Land, and things changed for me. That was a virtual scenario – I was where I wanted to be always. I came back to India for a life of struggle.
I had an idea of what I could achieve with my life only when I was in the Promised Land. If I work hard enough – there is no end to where I could go. I had often asked myself why do I want to touch the sky, why do I want to soar high? I always liked my mentor’s attitude towards money – if you have money, you have one less problem in life. If you have money – you can buy books, you can send your sister to a grad school, you can travel around the world, you can give comfort to your parents. Definitely money is not the only aspect of it. But its also true one of the things that comes along with toil is money. Every time I see a stray dog getting soaked in the rain in the Silicon Valley of India, my heart aches. There are so many homeless animals in India – they are left to the onslaught of human beings added to the onslaught of nature. Every time I see an animal crushed to death by some speeding vehicle, I become disturbed to an extent I can’t carry on with my normal activities. But I’ve realized the solution to all these problems is remaining disciplined now, and then serving them when I’ve the potential. “ Bhimor gada dangiboloi hole Bhimor bol arjjan koribo lagibo.” May be I should wait. May be I should wait till the time I become a Indra Nooyi. Only then my voice will be heard. Only then I will be able to make a difference. Till then I need to maintain silence. I remember reading a composition on “Nirab Sadhana” ( Silent Endeavor) when I was in high school. May be that’s the key to life. To attain anything in life one has to be worthy. Till one is worthy one should practise his skill silently – one should endeavor silently, or else one’s energy will be over in the journey, much before the goal is attained. “Bhimor bol nathaki Bhimor Gada dangile akal bardhokya he hobo.” That’s also my fear – will my energy be all over much before I reach the goal? Will I be dwarfed, shortsighted by the clutter around me, and eventually give up? Will I remain disciplined enough to realize the vision that I had since my childhood. So much has changed since then. So many mistakes committed. But from any point of life, one can only become better. One can only rectify one’s steps.
Answers to any question that life throws on you always lies within. A wise person accepts the answers and goes ahead.A wise person always knows to ignore what is not worthy and keep walking.
Keep walking … Johny Walker!!
I had no plans to make this come-back post so mellow! So tried splashing some out of place humor!
Yes, I will write more often!
Thanks, Red River, for being what you’re in my life. I also owe my life to the Red River.
